Aww, thanks, MAB.
I feel … validated. I feel … like I belong. I feel … like a real lesbian!
I spent my whole life
admiring women. I knew what I was, but I buried it. I didn’t act on it. With the help of a wonderful minister, I accepted myself in my early 30s. Then, with his help, I met and fell in love with the most extraordinary woman in the world.
I don’t have a butch bone in my body. I wear Pendleton plaids and jeans out West, but so do the straight girls. The butchest things I own are hard hats, which, I admit, are pretty butch.
I can fix a power plant, but I can’t change a light bulb. I can design an efficient internal combustion engine, but I can’t change a sparkplug.
My Love is a ranch girl. She can rewire a house or rebuild an engine, but she’s even more feminine than I am.
I wear a skirt. I wear (a little) makeup. I don’t wear heels.
So MAB says the award was for biggest lesbian, ever. Not biggest butch, ever. And getting engaged to the woman of my (and everyone else’s) dreams is pretty lez.
It validates that we lesbians are a diverse bunch. We don’t all fall into stereotypes.
So, thanks, middleagebutch! The prize was more than the prize!
PS: The prize was the ebook of middleagebutch’s memoir: Rae Theodore, Leaving Normal: Adventures in Gender. Everybody: go out and buy it! Even though neither my Love nor I is butch, and we’re both attracted to feminine women, it has had a lot to say to me. And it’s funny.